I feel trapped in my own illness

fsp4434 said:
@fsp4434 said:

Marabunta said:
@Marabuntasaid:

Hello Andrew

If you think about it coldly, any of us are subject to certain vital obligations: eat, sleep, work or have some form of subsistence.... Unfortunately, we have an additional one, it is what it is, we have to assume it.

To see the positive side, I am fitter and eat better since I am a type 1 diabetic, since sport regulates my blood sugar level a lot, and collaterally I find myself with more energy and stronger.On the other hand, I have acquired certain knowledge in nutrition that I did not have before and, the truth is, I have to admit that it is a topic that I like, since, although for us more, it is fundamental for any human being.

The depression thing you mention is another issue, and possibly much more important than being diabetic.Try to find some motivation that fulfills you personally, some help from a professional... Although now you see it very dark, there are many motivations, some hobbies, friendships, a partner... It is putting effort into wanting to move forward.I know that when you're down, it's not so easy to be optimistic, but you have to be willing.

Cheer up buddy

Hello Marabunta, this is not arguing, okay:

It hurts a lot when someone suggests that "with will or willpower" the depressive syndrome is resolved, if your neurotransmitters are at a minimum....

A hug.

I must have expressed myself wrong, I didn't mean to suggest that.I apologize if I may have offended anyone.

In any case, since you mention it, willpower matters, along with the right help, etc.

Look, I haven't entered this world yet, and I read you all with respect and admiration.I see myself like you if it is confirmed that I have antibodies, and I already learn from each other, you seem like fighters to me without a doubt and I can understand that this exhausts anyone, well of course!!!!.Just thinking that at 60 years old (already more than halfway through my life) I can see myself in this new struggle also makes me feel down, but we all know that life is about this... ups and downs, pleasant and unpleasant surprises.

But at the same time I would tell you that ENCOURAGE, that the daily struggle keeps you alive in the long term and you also have the pride of being able to help other rookies who still see this from the stands.We look at you, even if you don't know it (you already have enough to do every day).

In general I would tell you all that you are brave!!!!

The topic of psychologists and antidepressants does not work for me because of my personality, but in my family I have close examples who without that help would be terrible and it works for them.There is nothing wrong with using what works for each person, any help is little, I would not hesitate to resort to it if it would help me in some situations.... do not feel bad about it, anyone would do this!

As a button shows, I tell you a secret... 3 years ago they put a 3 cm stent in the anterior descending artery, I was lucky because I didn't have a heart attack nor did I notice anything.Since that day, my way of seeing things has changed a little.

Now this d1 thing is going to finish me off, because with heart disease it seems that the risk is multiplied, but hey... let's fight!!!I'm from Atleti, "match by match" hehehehe

What was said.Cheer up and keep fighting, friends

I have been a type 1 diabetic for 27 years, with the lowest glycosylation I have ever had of 8.3 and now I am almost 10. I have complications from it, neuropathy, retinopathy, cardiac ischemia and the slow stomach thing that I don't remember the name.

Apart from everything, I have severe major depression and BPD, and surgery on both shoulders and both hands.

Diabetes has ruined my life when I was 21 and I'm 48 and look at everything I already have and I attempted suicide.Like you, I have thought about how to request euthanasia because it is so bad that what you want is for the suffering and the nightmare to end once and for all. This disease is shit because it implies many things, people do not know even half of what they suppose, nor do they know what insulin is, mind you. Nor do they give rises or falls, which are not just figures...

Well, I can tell you that I understand you, good luck, reading helps me a lot.

Roccko said:
@Roccko said:

Look, I haven't entered this world yet, and I read you all with respect and admiration.I see myself like you if it is confirmed that I have antibodies, and I already learn from each other, you seem like fighters to me without a doubt and I can understand that this exhausts anyone, well of course!!!!.Just thinking that at 60 years old (already more than halfway through my life) I can see myself in this new struggle also makes me feel down, but we all know that life is about this... ups and downs, pleasant and unpleasant surprises.

But at the same time I would tell you that ENCOURAGE, that the daily struggle keeps you alive in the long term and you also have the pride of being able to help other rookies who still see this from the stands.We look at you, even if you don't know it (you have enough to do every day).

In general I would tell you all that you are brave!!!!

The topic of psychologists and antidepressants does not work for me because of my personality, but in my family I have close examples who without that help would be terrible and it works for them.There is nothing wrong with using what works for each person, any help is little, I would not hesitate to resort to it if it would help me in some situations.... do not feel bad about it, anyone would do this!

As a button shows, I tell you a secret... 3 years ago they put a 3 cm stent in the anterior descending artery, I was lucky because I didn't have a heart attack nor did I notice anything.Since that day, my way of seeing things has changed a little.

Now this d1 thing is going to finish me off, because with heart disease it seems that the risk is multiplied, but hey... let's fight!!!I'm from Atleti, "match by match" hehehehe

What was said.Cheer up and keep fighting, friends

Andres_Javier said:
Hello @Andres_Javier, nI don't want to give advice or say how you have to live this.Just talking to you from my own experience.

I have been living with diabetes for almost 59 years, and my life has had stages of all kinds: good, very hard, times of fear, tiredness, anger, exhaustion... and also moments of learning and finding a little meaning again.

Over the years I have understood that this disease is very draining, not just physically.There are days when one feels that one is tired even of the soul.That's why I understand that you may feel lost or lacking desire.

But I have also learned that life is never just about diabetes.There are other wounds, other losses, other blows that sometimes break a person inside much more deeply.Moments when it seems like everything is collapsing and you no longer know where to get strength from.

And yet, somehow, you can continue walking.Sometimes slow, sometimes broken, sometimes just breathing and making it through the day.

I have also experienced very difficult situations, other than the disease, and I am still here.Not because it has a special strength, but because life moves, changes, and because even when you think you can't take it anymore, something inside continues looking for a little light, calm or meaning.

Now they are finally going to put me on an insulin pump.After almost 59 years with diabetes, I have chosen to continue learning and making changes to try to live a little better.

I just wanted to tell you that I understand much more than you perhaps imagine, that deep tiredness you speak of.And you don't have to hold it all alone.