15 years of shit.

@Silviagrz
It is totally normal for you to worry and have days of downturn, as it happens to almost all.But you say it, we will concentrate on the now that is the only true.The future is unpredictable.
When I am on a downturn I think that tomorrow I will be better since the brain cannot be continuously happy, but not always sad and tomorrow will be better.And so it is usually.As you say, sometimes you have to fall to gain momentum.
Much encouragement.

@Muerto_Vivo: Take care of that depression you have because it does not let you see that it is possible to control and live with diabetes.
I attach a link that I hope helps you:
Link

Let's see .., which are improving treatments and you can get good control and stop complications.
That sensor helps a lot to control, there are new insulins that help normalize life more, without so many hypos and without food schedules.
And you can carry diabetes as a backpack, but that does not prevent living.
Let's not take life to life, that nobody knows what can happen to us tomorrow.

Come on @silviagrz !!Without a doubt today it has not been the best day for you to enter here!You seem super brave!You are right to live here and now, the future nobody assures us, neither to us, nor to people without diseases.One day I met a girl, approximately your age, who was also since she was little, and had been with retinopathy in one eye and had it controlled, surely everything will be fine ... a hug.
I also have my low, because of this happy disease, do not believe ... but life is beautiful and is not scolding, it is not to encourage someone to make some madness .... depression is a serious illness, perhapsMore than diabetes, because the head goes free and you cannot control ... I have also lived through a very close relative.As Isabel says, we have to allow ourselves to have good days and others not so good ... but we are warriors who are on the same ship and yes or do we have to float ... my good energies for everyone ....

@Muerto_Vivo is not a comfort but many of us go through yours.
In my case, depression lasted 4 years, 4 years of weekly psychologist, of not finding a way out, of living in passing, by inertia, without wanting to do anything.And when I finally left the tunnel, Zasca, type 1 diabetes.

I do not know that it was those 4 years of therapy, but I did not take it so bad, I accepted it and moved on.Last year they operated on Cancer and yesterday the doctor in the review gave me congratulations to carry it so well.(But I have an appointment in 6 months for piomas, which I will have to operate again ..... Arjjjj) I think like you, better a cancer than a diabetes.Since I am diabetic, the rest of the diseases see them in another way, there is treatment, then, nothing to throw and follow, without giving more importance.Maybe I banalize too much, but I have changed since I am a diabetic.

I also have to tell you that I live better than before and I do many more things than before: change of work several times in the middle of the pandemia, new couple, I travel much more, I do sports (I hate but I have fond of Walk At videosHome), I go out with my partner's friends, mine do not live in my city and it is more complicated.I do not stop a weekend (I would need to clean the floor and rest but ...)
Before I lived alone and I spent whole days without leaving home, house-work, work-work, now with that you have to do some exercise, I force myself to go for a walk but it rains and I return a little more renewed.

The low days, like all, total, why not die?I have no children to bequeathing anything, my parents have dementia, my brothers have their families and problems, we see little and talk less;Come on, I do not contribute anything to my environment or to society (if I read my psycho, I get tibor to pills :)) Well, as simple as I want to visit several countries, cities, go out with my partner to dinner, to the cinema, of escape, to the beach we love, to try my same challenges that I would not have imagined before (for example, 6 -hour hiking route), then perhaps it is no longer worth following, but surely by then I will have 80 and ofyears.

   @Ruthbia Gracias por tu opinión. Lamento todo por lo que has pasado, tampoco ha sido un camino de rosas precisamente. Humanamente, te deseo lo mejor. Ánimo.

Ricki21 said:
@Muerto_vivo: cuídate esa depresión que tienes porque no te deja ver que es posible controlar y vivir con diabetes.
Adjunto un enlace que espero te sirva de algo:
Link

   @Ricki21 Gracias por el enlace, le echaré un ojo.
   Pero eso que comentas me lo han dicho muchas veces y (sin acritud y agradeciendo tu consejo) me repatea. Que la depresión es lo que me tiene así... NO, JODER: lo que me trae así es esta p*ta enfermedad de mierda, esta lacra... Soy perfectamente consciente de cuál es la realidad. Podría decirte que ni siquiera considero que tengo depresión, lo que tengo es una vida de mierda arruinada por una enfermedad de mierda... Dame una pastilla que me quite esta lacra de encima y mi "depresión" se acaba al día siguiente.
   Por poner un personaje que todos conozcamos... si mañana Cristiano Ronaldo se levanta llorando como una magdalena y hecho un asco sin saber por qué, seguramente padezca una depresión. Yo sé muy bien por qué me acuesto deseando no despertarme y por qué me despierto maldiciendo cada nuevo día.
   Y entiendo que haya gente que a pesar de todo vive en el país de la piruleta y que sigue adelante y todo muy happy flower... ¡y oye, genial!. Ojalá yo también pudiese. Pero cada uno es como es.
   Dicho esto, gracias por tu consejo, @Ricki21. Espero no haberte ofendido.
   Ánimo a tod@s, que falta nos hace. Un abrazo.

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xavi said:
I have this terrible disease for 15 years.

Living in the frightful jail he represents (...)

Hi Xavi.
Hello everyone.
I have registered on this page just to answer you, to write here ... because I have been very bad for a very bad time, with an inner sadness that is just killing me.
Yes, I also carry inside the same demon as you and I think exactly the same as you.I guess we have very similar problems and we are both at the limit, although my life fell apart in 1996, when I was 21 years old.Without family history, good nutrition, without smoking, without drinking, athlete ... and overnight, everything went for the drain.
I know how you feel and forgive that I don't give you encourage you because I don't even have them for me.In my current situation, although I make a "normal" life I have in mind that I do not have much left, that any day will come the situation that puts me before my red line, that which many years ago I have drawn and I am not willing to transfer and thenThe end will come.Because yes, I've been thinking that this will be the time when I end my life.
On the way to the Calvary that has been this disease I have encountered many problems, from "banal" as a folliculitis through a deep depression from which I hardly come out (and there are still many sequelae) anxiety, helplessness ...
But in short, one day (for which less and less is missing) I will reach the red line and then the hell and the absurdity will end in which my life has become over the years, while rolling downhill andNo brakes.At first, slowly, then ... like a rocket.
That day, a bottle with 3 cubic meters of nitrogen and a conveniently sealed hotel room awaits me ... or my car in a place with good views.I have thought of Finisterre, in turning the valve with the last sunset on the sea ... and although my faith is quite precarious, I pray to God because the time has come of such need, the value does not miss me.
Anyway, in the end I will be encouraged equally: endures.While you can.We have no other .
I don't know what your situation is, hopefully better than mine.I live for not just killing my parents (if I were now in my way they would not last long) and for not putting the whore to my girl ... although after the time we have not been sex (and seeing my other perspectives) stillI don't know how it hasn't fled.That is what gives me the most, it kills me to think that I should never have begun this relationship ... knowing that I could never be happy and that I was going to take misfortune (my misfortune) to another life that I did not have to go throughthat.
My friends ... well, those who believed they were my friends, fled a long time ago.Of the few I keep, the most beloved is in my native Madrid and although we maintain contact (he visited me a few months ago) because in short, it is not for day to day.Others are simply people I appreciate, but I don't know if I would call "friends."I barely leave.I don't feel like anything anymore.I no longer have dreams, or illusions, or wishes.I am a dead man in life, I've been knowing it for a long time.I have already given the same almost everything.
Many tell you that you talk to people (it also happened to me with depression) but I don't have to talk to.Because of my current employment situation (or rather because of it) I can not pay myself an adequate psychological or psychiatric attention and also ... the only thing they did with me was to get into the antidepressants and anxiolytics that the only thing they served was to make me go zombieFor life.Here in Lugo, where I live, psychological attention on the part of Sergas is truly pathetic and delznable ... I suppose they would only give me due intention if "I tried" suicide.And of course, what do I do ...I amount to a number eating two alprazolam tablets?.It is not a plan ... if one day (or rather, "when I arrive that day") I face that, I will not "try",
But that said, uncle ... Xavi ... endures everything you can.There will be no cure, there will be no help.Real help, with capital letters.That also sold it to me in 1996. The International Farmafia will not kill the chicken of the golden eggs ... We are alone.But endure, there is no other.
I don't roll up anymore ... that I have already started.
A hug, Xavi.
Greetings to all.

Faced with your suffering, I can only say that it has moved me deeply and respect your feeling.You also seem very brave to continue being there, despite everything, for love of your loved ones.A hug from heart.

Almost the same day they told me that it was diabetic, I told myself that diabetes was not going to control my life.And since then he accompanies me, but he has not prevented me from doing anything, nor eating what I want or drinking what I want (eye, knowledge of how this partner works).
From pilot Ulms, jump in parachute, train hard and win border competitions, martial arts, act and take me theater awards, fill auditoriums, some TV appearances, have children, give me bike routes, hiking, continue helping more patientsIn my therapy cabinet, climbing mountains, with them (and without them) ...... And what I have left and I do not give up to have someday (title of aquatic lifeguard, plane pilot, more championships won, train aMy grandchildren when I have them, as I have done with my children and make those routes that towards but now with them, resume the scenarios and those crazy ideas of shows that I had to present them in public ........ Well noI still have things to live, to allow diabetes to stop me.
Everything is a matter of attitude.It sounds obvious, and perhaps more coming from someone, than me, usually gives coaching and motivation sessions, but it really is so.The way you talk to your mind determines what you will achieve.You can put the focus on 2 sites.If you put the mental focus on the negative, everything you will see is negative but if you put it in the positive, everything you will have is positive.What does the focus change?They usually say that if you don't like it, but it's not correct.If you don't like something, change.That is the right thing.If you keep doing the same as always you will get the usual results.If you want something to change, the simplest thing is that you change, since you cannot control the external circumstances change what you can control.Your way of relating to them.Try doing something different.You will discover a lot of yourself.

I am the first one that I think has to live with diabetes, and not for diabetes.
But we cannot compare each other.We are not going the same life.And you have to be positive, but sometimes the circumstances do not allow you, no matter how much you want to see the good side ...
The type of diabetes that each one has very determines our life we ​​want or not.To that are added our personal problems ...

I try to have an absolutely "normal" life.But let's not fool ourselves, at least in my case, you can't.You can "adapt."

On Sundays I don't know why doing exactly the same, similar intakes, etc ... etc ... in the middle of the afternoon I always upload my glucose and I have to rectify (although the basal goes up that day).Sometimes I punctuate and it is as if I had not.Result: if on Sunday I have been (as this happened to me) in a birthday, I can socialize, but I can't eat anything and I just look at me ... it hurts ... what do you want me to tell you.And I can't eat and click more because I give birth to high figures and generate some terrible peaks.And it is also that the rapid seems that it doesn't even serve me.

The problem comes now, which makes me get rid of totally.And they want to leave everything and hale ...
There are times that I have a great streak and my sugar goes phenomenal and suddenly ... everything falls apart.BECAUSE!Does anyone happen to anyone?
I have to start down or go up the basal, rectify a lot of times quickly ... until he painted it.And of course I spend days ... and that influences my glycemia.
The people around me tell me why ... that something has to be, that he goes to the emergency room (if I go, the fixed toilets are split).
Many people I know wears the same pattern of the basal years ...
It makes me feel rare and different and the worst ... I know that lack of control harms me in my eyes, I move away from my goal that is to get pregnant and make me think that I don't know how to take care of myself and depress me a lot ...
Some have some figures that I by much calculation, food without HC and eg I will not get in life.

I think: day by day.
But it is very difficult when you have a diabetes that flutua so much.

@Silviagrz happens to me ... still carrying a bomb ... when it is a hormonal issue, which ovulus (usually) insulin is water.Now I must have a throat virus (because I have it annoyed) and I have been in early morning ups (when the bomb always makes me get up in the range), in the afternoon .. practically all day.My educator does not worry because I am almost always above 90 in rank ... and says that there are many people who barely reach 70 ... but it is fighting Goliath ... no matter how much I try notThere is a perfect way ... and that is called type 1 diabetes ...
If you plan to get pregnant, they will put the bomb and guarantee that your glycemia will improve, when working with algorithms you forget a constant basal and she manages you based on the blood glucose to which you are ... you will forget to be up and downdose.Here there is a lot of type 2 diabetic and reaching its glys is almost impossible no matter how much we strive ... I hope to improve when it enters menopause (although my gine has told me that I still have many years) so I do not touchanother to have patience and try to carry this slab as well as possible.After a few days, the best will arrive ... a hug.

casssie said:
@silviagrz happens to me ... still carrying a bomb ... when it is a hormonal issue, which ovulus (usually) insulin is water.Now I must have a throat virus (because I have it annoyed) and I have been in early morning ups (when the bomb always makes me get up in the range), in the afternoon .. practically all day.My educator does not worry because I am almost always above 90 in rank ... and says that there are many people who barely reach 70 ... but it is fighting Goliath ... no matter how much I try notThere is a perfect way ... and that is called type 1 diabetes ...
If you plan to get pregnant, they will put the bomb and guarantee that your glycemia will improve, when working with algorithms you forget a constant basal and she manages you based on the blood glucose to which you are ... you will forget to be up and downdose.Here there is a lot of type 2 diabetic and reaching its glys is almost impossible no matter how much we strive ... I hope to improve when it enters menopause (although my gine has told me that I still have many years) so I do not touchanother to have patience and try to carry this slab as well as possible.After a few days, think the best ones will arrive ... a hug.

Well, I don't know what to tell you PQ with menopause usually increases insulin resistance

moñiño said:
I almost the same day that they were diabetic, I told myself that diabetes was not going to control my life.And since then he accompanies me, but he has not prevented me from doing anything, nor eating what I want or drinking what I want (eye, knowledge of how this partner works).
From pilot Ulms, jump in parachute, train hard and win border competitions, martial arts, act and take me theater awards, fill auditoriums, some TV appearances, have children, give me bike routes, hiking, continue helping more patientsIn my therapy cabinet, climbing mountains, with them (and without them) ...... And what I have left and I do not give up to have someday (title of aquatic lifeguard, plane pilot, more championships won, train aMy grandchildren when I have them, as I have done with my children and make those routes that towards but now with them, resume the scenarios and those crazy ideas of shows that I had to present them in public ........ Well noI still have things to live, to allow diabetes to stop me.
Everything is a matter of attitude.It sounds obvious, and perhaps more coming from someone, than me, usually gives coaching and motivation sessions, but it really is so.The way you talk to your mind determines what you will achieve.You can put the focus on 2 sites.If you put the mental focus on the negative, everything you will see is negative but if you put it in the positive, everything you will have is positive.What does the focus change?They usually say that if you don't like it, but it's not correct.If you don't like something, change.That is the right thing.If you keep doing the same as always you will get the usual results.If you want something to change, the simplest thing is that you change, since you cannot control the external circumstances change what you can control.Your way of relating to them.Try doing something different.You will discover a lot of yourself.

All of that is very good, it is not about diabetes but if you have limitations for it, in long evolution with controls that were not good years ago because the appropriate media or medicines did not exist for it and you have any complication that can limit youIt is not so easy, if suddenly in an ophthalmological review, they would tell you that you have lost vision because of the DB, would you continue thinking that you will be able to do everything here for a few years and nothing happens?It is complicated, it depends on many factors.

@meginer Don't tell me that woman !!I prefer to live cheated !!hahaha I have met a couple of girls who have been better since they are menopausal .... so for now, I prefer to live thinking that, for a few years, if the thing is then complicated, I will look for a new reality ....;)

Cassie said:
@meginer don't tell me that woman !!I prefer to live cheated !!hahaha I have met a couple of girls who have been better since they are menopausal .... so for now, I prefer to live thinking that, for a few years, if the thing is then complicated, I will look for a new reality ....;)

Well, when you retire at all, there can be no high hormone ups and downs but as long as the process lasts now, not now, it is a roll.

It happens to me too.In fact I am now fully involved in a week of erratic glucose.Two nights I had exactly the same and put the same insulin and one morning I woke up at Hicm and the other upload [150).This is so, correcting, trying more basal, less basal crazy.

Well yes: it's shit.But if after a carcinoma and other similar shits and that have made their appearance without invoking them, I still want to live, to travel, to crush myself with the bike or on the mountain, the diabetes will not take them away.Here we spend only a little while and you have to make the most of it.Today it will not be repeated again.My circumstances are not yours, mainly due to age, and with respect to impotence problems, there are also other options that a urologist can facilitate you.Come on

meginer said:

moñiño said:
I almost the same day they told me that it was diabetic, I told myself that diabetes was not going to control my life.And since then he accompanies me, but he has not prevented me from doing anything, nor eating what I want or drinking what I want (eye, knowledge of how this partner works).
From pilot Ulms, jump in parachute, train hard and win border competitions, martial arts, act and take me theater awards, fill auditoriums, some TV appearances, have children, give me bike routes, hiking, continue helping more patientsIn my therapy cabinet, climbing mountains, with them (and without them) ...... And what I have left and I do not give up to have someday (title of aquatic lifeguard, plane pilot, more championships won, train aMy grandchildren when I have them, as I have done with my children and make those routes that towards but now with them, resume the scenarios and those crazy ideas of shows that I had to present them in public ........ Well noI still have things to live, to allow diabetes to stop me.
Everything is a matter of attitude.It sounds obvious, and perhaps more coming from someone, than me, usually gives coaching and motivation sessions, but it really is so.The way you talk to your mind determines what you will achieve.You can put the focus on 2 sites.If you put the mental focus on the negative, everything you will see is negative but if you put it in the positive, everything you will have is positive.What does the focus change?They usually say that if you don't like it, but it's not correct.If you don't like something, change.That is the right thing.If you keep doing the same as always you will get the usual results.If you want something to change, the simplest thing is that you change, since you cannot control the external circumstances change what you can control.Your way of relating to them.Try doing something different.You will discover a lot of yourself.

All of that is very good, it is not about diabetes but if you have limitations for it, in long evolution with controls that were not good years ago because the appropriate media or medicines did not exist for it and you have any complication that can limit youIt is not so easy, if suddenly in an ophthalmological review, they would tell you that you have lost vision because of the DB, would you continue thinking that you will be able to do everything here for a few years and nothing happens?It is complicated, it depends on many factors.

Yes, these are diabetes, the forum is diabtes.And yes, they have told me that the view is failing me by the DB (my great grandmother stayed blind because of the diabetes and my older sister without glasses, which she is because of the diabetes from shortly before she turned 4,He doesn't see three in donkey; good precedents, huh?).I have gone through a neuropathy with much likely, so they told me, by diabetes.They had to give me electro shocks to be able to reactivate my nervous system (I do not recommend it to my worst enemy).I was about to die after the 13th day, operated in life or death (it had nothing to do with diabetes), by a specialist who had to bring by helicopter.The operation left me sequels and since that day my stomach doesn't work as it should.In my family there are diabetics, without skipping in generations, for more than 100 years.I have been guinea pig to try things and devices before they are in the market.Apparently we have in my family, something in DNA that makes us likely to have a rather aggressive type 1 diabetes ........ But here I continue, smiling at life.And I already told you many of the things I had to do in my life, and that I have alreadydone.And vice versa, everything makes me reaffirm my thinking.It is true, that certain thoughts may pass me for a few minutes, but I do not let them catch me (I recognize that I also know many techniques so that it does not happen, since I have a therapies and coaching business and emotional management).Limitations are only in mind.Take care how you speak in that internal language that you have with you myself.If you tell yourself that you can, you are, you are able, in the end you will end up feeling it (I understand that it sounds easy, and it is, but at first as everything, it costs) if you tell yourself the opposite ............

moñiño said:

meginer said:

moñiño said:
moñiño said:
I almost the same day they told me it was diabetic, I told myself that diabetes was not going to control my life.And since then he accompanies me, but he has not prevented me from doing anything, nor eating what I want or drinking what I want (eye, knowledge of how this partner works).
From pilot Ulms, jump in parachute, train hard and win border competitions, martial arts, act and take me theater awards, fill auditoriums, some TV appearances, have children, give me bike routes, hiking, continue helping more patientsIn my therapy cabinet, climbing mountains, with them (and without them) ...... And what I have left and I do not give up to have someday (title of aquatic lifeguard, plane pilot, more championships won, train aMy grandchildren when I have them, as I have done with my children and make those routes that towards but now with them, resume the scenarios and those crazy ideas of shows that I had to present them in public ........ Well noI still have things to live, to allow diabetes to stop me.
Everything is a matter of attitude.It sounds obvious, and perhaps more coming from someone, than me, usually gives coaching and motivation sessions, but it really is so.The way you talk to your mind determines what you will achieve.You can put the focus on 2 sites.If you put the mental focus on the negative, everything you will see is negative but if you put it in the positive, everything you will have is positive.What does the focus change?They usually say that if you don't like it, but it's not correct.If you don't like something, change.That is the right thing.If you keep doing the same as always you will get the usual results.If you want something to change, the simplest thing is that you change, since you cannot control the external circumstances change what you can control.Your way of relating to them.Try doing something different.You will discover a lot of yourself.

All of that is very good, it is not about diabetes but if you have limitations for it, in long evolution with controls that were not good years ago because the appropriate media or medicines did not exist for it and you have any complication that can limit youIt is not so easy, if suddenly in an ophthalmological review, they would tell you that you have lost vision because of the DB, would you continue thinking that you will be able to do everything here for a few years and nothing happens?It is complicated, it depends on many factors.

Yes, these are diabetes, the forum is diabtes.And yes, they have told me that the view is failing me by the DB (my great grandmother stayed blind because of the diabetes and my older sister without glasses, which she is because of the diabetes from shortly before she turned 4,He doesn't see three in donkey; good precedents, huh?).I have gone through a neuropathy with much likely, so they told me, by diabetes.They had to give me electro shocks to be able to reactivate my nervous system (I do not recommend it to my worst enemy).I was about to die after the 13th day, operated in life or death (it had nothing to do with diabetes), by a specialist who had to bring by helicopter.The operation left me sequels and since that day my stomach doesn't work as it should.In my family there are diabetics, without skipping in generations, for more than 100 years.I have been guinea pig to try things and devices before they are in the market.Apparently we have in my family, something in DNA that makes us likely to have a rather aggressive type 1 diabetes ........ But here I continue, smiling at life.And I already told you many of the things I'veI proposed to do in my life, and that I have already done.And vice versa, everything makes me reaffirm my thinking.It is true, that certain thoughts may pass me for a few minutes, but I do not let them catch me (I recognize that I also know many techniques so that it does not happen, since I have a therapies and coaching business and emotional management).Limitations are only in mind.Take care how you speak in that internal language that you have with you myself.If you tell yourself that you can, you are, you are able, in the end you will end up feeling it (I understand that it sounds easy, and it is, but at first as everything, it costs) if you tell yourself the opposite .............

Well, I smelled, but not everyone has that strength, I do not have it at least, and I think it is normal not to have it what matters the most is health, it does not go as you would like.But I congratulate you if you are able to abstract in this way and live the present without looking beyond.

What does aggressive diabetes mean?
Language is important, type 1 diabetes is for all the same, disappearance of beta cells insulin generators.

Another thing is that it alters people based on other pathologies, mood, functional state, etc.

Aggressive diabetes is the one that causes you to enter the forum and get angry with everyone ....: D